What is Fun?

To be frank and honest..fun..what is it? Try asking urself that.

People say its just when ur able to be urself, or saying that its hanging out with mates and doing wateva u want..right?

Well ur probably thinking that, I have the answer to it, I don't think so either, lets just say im saying my OWN kind of opinion of 'FUN'.

Fun gives, that the sense to all people, that things aren't as bad as they seem...no matter the reality that this world leaves us...

Fun is the 'numbing' of stress I guess what best describes it, cause to think about what would do without it. I'd bet none of us would. Take these examples for instance, have u eva been in the situation where the day ur having is so off, then all of a sudden a funny moment in the day pops in, or person who u bump into makes u laugh, or a crazy funny phrase by some person...fun comes and goes...but when it happens...it's the icebreaker for our stress that we build up.

People who are able to do this like comedians and ppl who are just plain funny, to really think about are doing us a favour, rather than random occurrences.

Cause to think about who wants to live in a world of Utopia (lolz...if u don't wat that means its when the world lives under one certain type of lifestyle). Cause 'having fun' once in a while is very useful, very important in some cases.

But again, u neva take fun for granted. Ppl who think fun is means of having a life and living to it...is sadly mistaken fun isn’t supposed to be a vessel to be used. Realli would u wanna c someone try to have fun everyday…the only ppl who can say that are the ppl who have achieved everything, but by the time u reach that stage, there isn't any more fun at all to look forward to anyway...so really u can just have fun 24/7 I guess...

As for the last couple of days...well ive been thinking (as always, hahaha), life atms still kinda well wat can u say, in a state of waiting something to happen...Well brother is still acting the same...that exuberant youth of him, sorta pisses everyone off from some instance, but yea last nite was interesting talking to my mum again..realli it was.

Like again all of a sudden she wanted to talk to me, and ASK me for advice, and like yea I did..and yea I told her to let my brother 'make that mistake' (thanks for that FAYE =)..)

But yeah the weird thing was, like there are times my bro will all of sudden want to act serz, and then a minute later he closes up and hides with that ignorant, sense of humour, or wanting to have fun, and acting bored thing...When really he wants the attention and wants me and my rents jus to be proud of me. For me, my parents can say enough of me, but deep down inside I feel like I don't want this...praise...cause it eats my brother down, and to hear from your mother that ur bro or sis saying "He/She doesn't love me anymore" makes it worse on me..cause yea I still wanna be there for him but I cant now that im older, and have had more experience.

The worse thing in the world is that I can be able to explain that to him, cause all that does is end up him saying 'U've changed' speech, or begins to blackmail me, so that he can get away from the blame or fire he gets from ppl.

Well I guess time is the only thing at the moment that makes all the sense,

"Time heals all wounds"

If one thing is for sure...patience is needed always...and yea today was gud for me like, my bros friend came when I was at my cuzins place and like we caught up and spent some time together...what I got out of it was this...

For a long tym in my whole schooling life for that matter...I missed out on something...when I heard the two of them talk about memories of the 'good old days'...sorta left me in a state of sadness, as I look baq and only remember the bad ones rather than the gud ones, and thinking to myself 'where hav my friends gone?, where have all the fond memories go?' ...geez fun for me is hard to come by as I jus cruise along the highway of life...

Each day I spend on this Earth I learn more and more about myself and to think about, I surprise myself...like with wat stuff im able to say to others...

For me the one thing that keeps me happi...well my feeling of 'fun' is being able to help someone either directly or indirectly, whether by jus sayin 'hello' to an old friend, or giving advice to someone, inspiring others...like these blog entries... I dunno how much of an impact im showing?

But I noe im having fun doing it, imagining someone else, either friend or stranger being able to feel betta after they read..cause it made a difference in their lives..

I guess to end tonites blog is by saying 'fun' to most ppl is just something that naturally happens...well in fact it does..but the best thing about it is...fun gets is a drug that keeps us sane from the brutal world that has become today, not only physically but mentally now days, especially teenagers and young adults so much unwanted pressure...

In the end all I can say is have 'fun' with life...enjoy it to the MAX...but neva keep ur eyes of the prize. As long as u keep that in mind, life SHOULD get betta for anyone out dere...

Well that its for now....

Ttylz tc gb and

Tc of each other

Peace outs