Well first time i actually blogged here..well it been awhile since i last blogged, i got another one on my msnspace well not many ppl read....but the ones who hav..and hav taken somethin away from im glad it did change ppl lives...well its kinda weird dont it? We say we can change ppl lives, isnt only in fantasy world or the realm of movies can we normal ppl change lives for the better.

Well i dunno but i still believe, but at the same time its a part of me that eats at me. Sometimes i ask myself y do gud for the sake of others..i thing seems to spring up in my mind and its this:

wat i went through so far in my life....i dont want others to go through...i feel like i hav a duty for some odd reason to help others...

ppl my age ur probably thinkin...should drinkin acting WILD and FREE and embracin life..well i pplz i had to GROW UP early and yea..i do regret it, trust me its normal for me to do that but at the same time..it does hav its perks..like for most ppl im the kinda person who ppl can talk to about anythin a person who is neutral..someone who can keep a secret..(lolz..noe to much bout that ive hav my own deep secret)..like i keep sayin to myself, but with little conviction, "i aint the usual guy..."

but...realli is being gud dying? tell me that, isnt the act of being gud, is being forced upon us rather than coming deep down. Y is it so harder to show feelings...instead blinding the ourselves with fads and fantasy...and this so called reality crap...y is it that bein a gud person seems so uncool, yea ppl say that there gud..but when does someone REALLI MEAN it..i for one am doin it right now.

and yes we arent all prefect, but is just me or has the world lookin at life where, success overrides everythin in the world...i guess the song "I wish i was a punk rocker" by Sandi Thom, summed my point of view of life...

many parents well ppl born in the 50's and 60's sorta wished it was..but yea i can c where everyone else side about. Like ppl believe they noe doin rite brings gud tidings to others...but y is it we hide it...do we think we noe everythin?..

maybe its jus my paranoia steppin in...but i jus cant help it..y act immature to be happi...y is sex seeming the best way to insult..maybe its the relationships that we have wit ppl....maybe thats where it lies...ppl share lives, share experiences, go through life wit someone...for me it was family..for others there r many reasons y we are who we are..

i guess the best way to look at life as it is:

'wat we go through in life from religion, family, friends, work, skool..and beyond..it makes us who we are..perfectly human'

thats it from me for my first blog..comments i dont mind..i dont mind listenin to wats on ur mind..

peace outz

magsman