I quote one man saying....
"Youth has no age..."
In fact that is true but is it true today?....
That quote was said by a man by the name of Pablo Piccaso...great man no doubt...but things have changed so much haven't they.
It's been a while since i wrote a decent blog the last three have been pretty woeful. Pretty much self explainitory(if thats how its spelt!!!). The last one sorta set the mood this September, wells its my topic for tonight and that is depression.
Scary thought if you didn't know 1 of every 4 people in Australia have depression...and the thing is you either know someone who has it or even don't know you have it.
Depression is supposedly quite normal as a down stage, or downtime if you could say, most people try to find a way to go around it or talk about. But when you talk to someone that is depressed the thing is that you have no idea what the person is feeling unless you have ever felt it. Cause in the end depression is like disease, and that in the end a person may not remember the moment...you only remember how it felt.
And i guess people need to understand thats how life and we as humans think....we FEEL. Back to the point i was making at the start...youth has no age...sorry picasso but seems to be different today..more and more i see people to grow up so early and so quickly and too the point where they can lose sight of where they are. Including myself, maybe I am too depressed and from what reason im still trying to put my finger on it but i just can't. I guess growing up is 50/50 most of the time well how am i to know.
All i can say is this, if you got a problem just talk to someone, anyone...because keeping it in will just eat away at you and you might end up depressed and end up on prescribed drugs. Not poking fun at people who are on it...but really just be careful about things, like what you say about someone, think before you act.
People say we learn alot from history the funny thing is do we learn from it? I leave that up to you to answer.
Note: Hope this ends my bad streak of bad blogging
Saturday, September 29, 2007
Saturday, September 08, 2007
Poster Boy
Have u eva been put through so much yet finish s far...?
Rite at the moment im in such a mess emotionally that ive blocked everyone out, and the thing i havent been able to talk to anyone for that matter. Everytime I think about it the more and more i feel that its me that is doin the wrong rather than the people around.
Am I a serious depressed person crying in this stupid blog of mine or is it a combinations of things, that which my life at this moment would turn for the worst, am i turning into cousins in my family who have followedon a path filled with depression and not being able to express it...Or is it a test for me whether my faith was as strong as i thought it was in my past...i keep refering to it so often, am i holding myself baq to find an excuse to explain my faults to a past which has already resovled.
When i talk about mysel, quite often i charade myself like a clown or an famous sportstar or anybody who is in the limelight, is the pressure of it all from my whole life gone to my head, am i losing it???
For so long my whole family has looked up to me, my parents, my brother, my aunts, uncles cousins, nieces and nephew...has that cause me to break up emotionally as it has...Rite now i feel this is my only way to express myself openly without the need covering up maybe it is time for me...no too much time wasted in a life that has always had potential...and thats all there has been.
Now looking back, everyday i realli only just hoped that things will just happen 4 me, and the stupid thing is was that i overlook my own advice that i give to people and me not being to realize that i too was a victim of my life and not being able to take my life by the hands.
4 most of my life i thought i was strong enough to deal with life...but i guess i was wrong i guess i took things or approached things in a view which did more harm then gud. Wat happened these past 4 yrs where did they go?? what hav i achieved??? i sumtimes ask myself, do i need to sleep on it like a normal person should, is therapy an option.
So questions, so many doubts, so many things rushing through my head at a million miles an hour to which i will end up nowhere. i guess being an australian filipino livin in the sydney suburbs with a family going through so much, with so much potential can get it all mucked up as it is rite now, who would of thought?...i guess my life is neva be easy even if i pour my heart across the internet or too anyone else...all i can do now is to hope 2omoro is a better day....
i guess the song i hav rite playin on my blog says a bit...if anyone wants to give messages plz do..
Rite at the moment im in such a mess emotionally that ive blocked everyone out, and the thing i havent been able to talk to anyone for that matter. Everytime I think about it the more and more i feel that its me that is doin the wrong rather than the people around.
Am I a serious depressed person crying in this stupid blog of mine or is it a combinations of things, that which my life at this moment would turn for the worst, am i turning into cousins in my family who have followedon a path filled with depression and not being able to express it...Or is it a test for me whether my faith was as strong as i thought it was in my past...i keep refering to it so often, am i holding myself baq to find an excuse to explain my faults to a past which has already resovled.
When i talk about mysel, quite often i charade myself like a clown or an famous sportstar or anybody who is in the limelight, is the pressure of it all from my whole life gone to my head, am i losing it???
For so long my whole family has looked up to me, my parents, my brother, my aunts, uncles cousins, nieces and nephew...has that cause me to break up emotionally as it has...Rite now i feel this is my only way to express myself openly without the need covering up maybe it is time for me...no too much time wasted in a life that has always had potential...and thats all there has been.
Now looking back, everyday i realli only just hoped that things will just happen 4 me, and the stupid thing is was that i overlook my own advice that i give to people and me not being to realize that i too was a victim of my life and not being able to take my life by the hands.
4 most of my life i thought i was strong enough to deal with life...but i guess i was wrong i guess i took things or approached things in a view which did more harm then gud. Wat happened these past 4 yrs where did they go?? what hav i achieved??? i sumtimes ask myself, do i need to sleep on it like a normal person should, is therapy an option.
So questions, so many doubts, so many things rushing through my head at a million miles an hour to which i will end up nowhere. i guess being an australian filipino livin in the sydney suburbs with a family going through so much, with so much potential can get it all mucked up as it is rite now, who would of thought?...i guess my life is neva be easy even if i pour my heart across the internet or too anyone else...all i can do now is to hope 2omoro is a better day....
i guess the song i hav rite playin on my blog says a bit...if anyone wants to give messages plz do..
Wednesday, July 18, 2007
Point of No Return
Have you ever…
Reached a point in your life, where you are pushed to the limit, made yourself so open, that even the largest bomb wouldn't compare.
It's moments like these you live life for, moments where people grow as a person, you see things you may have never imagined to feel, be or become.
The thing I find very disturbing is that some people who have never felt this blissful moment…will never understand, take for instance the Virginia Tech Killer, this year, he never got to express who he truly was, in a 'black and white' world you could say, he's cold blooded, the law took things in its own way, with what he had done.
I guess you could say he never was able to feel that moment, and feel sorry for him (rest his soul), for sure he did MAJOR! Wrong. But did you ever imagine. Could we have stopped it? What if..? There isn't any thing we can do to have stop but to only learn from our mistakes, of course we are still part of that HUMAN CONDITION.
Especially for all you high school kids, and uni guys or any young people out there, the world is larger, as well as closer than you think. Don't make the world you believe your in is the one you are going to be in. If you're being bullied in school, TELL SOMEONE!!! If you didn't get that major job, if you're not going well in Uni, don't let the world get to you.
In today's world you hear in the news of people dying, people killing each other, over things they have no control, or for something so petty less..It's unbelievable. You see things such as mass killings by school kids in America, people being abused at home, militia in Africa, poverty, famine, illiteracy, and a war that doesn't make any sense at all.
And in the end, all of us will die…saying quite bluntly, but its true isn't it? Am I wrong?
My point really before losing myself, and right now as a I write this entry, I want people to see the world just as that famous song by Louis Armstrong believed the world should be, which I reckon in today's society needs to be played everywhere.
I know I am neither preacher nor anybody important for that matter, but I know we were all put on this Earth to do something, that something is the definition why we live now, and wake up every morning. Hence why I posed that question at the start of this entry, it's the point of no return, that moment where countless memories really give you a sense of what the world should be like:
Its moments like these we live for, what we strive for, I believe every single person in the world has these moments whatever they may be. The reason why I wrote this entry for people to understand, see what I see through my eyes and my mind and through my words, that's this world is still beautiful in whoever eyes.
I hope when you finish reading this it will open your mind to a world of opportunity, rather than world of missed opportunity.
It's now up to you…
P.S:
Song of the moment: "Shadow of the Day"-Linkin Park(Audio)
And oh if you're bored reading here's some comedy to pick you up…by the Infamous "Balls of Steel"
Reached a point in your life, where you are pushed to the limit, made yourself so open, that even the largest bomb wouldn't compare.
It's moments like these you live life for, moments where people grow as a person, you see things you may have never imagined to feel, be or become.
The thing I find very disturbing is that some people who have never felt this blissful moment…will never understand, take for instance the Virginia Tech Killer, this year, he never got to express who he truly was, in a 'black and white' world you could say, he's cold blooded, the law took things in its own way, with what he had done.
I guess you could say he never was able to feel that moment, and feel sorry for him (rest his soul), for sure he did MAJOR! Wrong. But did you ever imagine. Could we have stopped it? What if..? There isn't any thing we can do to have stop but to only learn from our mistakes, of course we are still part of that HUMAN CONDITION.
Especially for all you high school kids, and uni guys or any young people out there, the world is larger, as well as closer than you think. Don't make the world you believe your in is the one you are going to be in. If you're being bullied in school, TELL SOMEONE!!! If you didn't get that major job, if you're not going well in Uni, don't let the world get to you.
In today's world you hear in the news of people dying, people killing each other, over things they have no control, or for something so petty less..It's unbelievable. You see things such as mass killings by school kids in America, people being abused at home, militia in Africa, poverty, famine, illiteracy, and a war that doesn't make any sense at all.
And in the end, all of us will die…saying quite bluntly, but its true isn't it? Am I wrong?
My point really before losing myself, and right now as a I write this entry, I want people to see the world just as that famous song by Louis Armstrong believed the world should be, which I reckon in today's society needs to be played everywhere.
I know I am neither preacher nor anybody important for that matter, but I know we were all put on this Earth to do something, that something is the definition why we live now, and wake up every morning. Hence why I posed that question at the start of this entry, it's the point of no return, that moment where countless memories really give you a sense of what the world should be like:
- Your first kiss
- Graduating High School or University
- Getting Married
- Skydiving for the 1st time
- Fulfilling that dream, turning into reality
- Just finding that friend in the dark
- Dancing in a nightclub for the 1st time
- Having a baby
- Nailing that 1st ever double back flip on a motocross
- Spending 20 years in prison to find equality, in a country that never had any
- Surviving Cancer and winning the Tour de France…not only once but 7 times
Its moments like these we live for, what we strive for, I believe every single person in the world has these moments whatever they may be. The reason why I wrote this entry for people to understand, see what I see through my eyes and my mind and through my words, that's this world is still beautiful in whoever eyes.
I hope when you finish reading this it will open your mind to a world of opportunity, rather than world of missed opportunity.
It's now up to you…
P.S:
Song of the moment: "Shadow of the Day"-Linkin Park(Audio)
And oh if you're bored reading here's some comedy to pick you up…by the Infamous "Balls of Steel"
Friday, May 11, 2007
Reaction
Ever heard of "Newton's Laws"...lolz who can remember high school science anyways...
Funny thing i noticed as I listened to that quote, and quotes of many great people...great or small for that matter. On how we should live our own lives.
The weird thing is, watching and hearing thoughts of others on how we live our lives...especially when im writing at the moment...with Oprah talking about that..."Secret". Yeah! "The Secret". I felt like...mellow, inspired for a moment like a boxer is when he starts the 1st round or when someone waits before the standing down the altar.
Everyone wants a taste of life, the taste of success, the pursuit of happyness..lolz..we all strive for it.
Coming back to Newton's Law...funny how that quote has a great truth behind it. If you don't live your life....think of things that will make your life...your actions will be the same.
Sorry if im sounding to prechy for people my age. Lolz funni how im always conscious about that.
In my own life i begin to realize how life is supposed to be lived by the person..but yet we are SO!!! in tune to try in live out others consciously or unconsciously. We assume that life should be have meaning, we expect things to happen to us.
From ourselves getting married, waiting for that massive 21st party, wanting that knight in shining armour or Princess...to come, or have that family to depend....
I believe things happen for a reason, and i dont believe all people know what they want from life...rather living the moment is the only way.
Just something i made which sorta put me in my place;
Every person is capable of having "SUCCESS" in their life. No one can take it away from you rather, celebrate the life you have rather than finding every flaw that it brings as it will bring more flaws and things you envision as fear will become the exact thing.
As for my own life...you see the things there on my TO DO list...well you got an idea of where im heading..and im not gonna try and let anyone get in the way from what want to. OR rather shall i say...allow myself to get in the way...
I end with this famous scene from the film "The Pursuit of Happyness"..great movie gotta it:
And by the way my FAV song atms "Undiscovered"-James Morrison (Song of the Week)
Funny thing i noticed as I listened to that quote, and quotes of many great people...great or small for that matter. On how we should live our own lives.
The weird thing is, watching and hearing thoughts of others on how we live our lives...especially when im writing at the moment...with Oprah talking about that..."Secret". Yeah! "The Secret". I felt like...mellow, inspired for a moment like a boxer is when he starts the 1st round or when someone waits before the standing down the altar.
Everyone wants a taste of life, the taste of success, the pursuit of happyness..lolz..we all strive for it.
Coming back to Newton's Law...funny how that quote has a great truth behind it. If you don't live your life....think of things that will make your life...your actions will be the same.
Sorry if im sounding to prechy for people my age. Lolz funni how im always conscious about that.
In my own life i begin to realize how life is supposed to be lived by the person..but yet we are SO!!! in tune to try in live out others consciously or unconsciously. We assume that life should be have meaning, we expect things to happen to us.
From ourselves getting married, waiting for that massive 21st party, wanting that knight in shining armour or Princess...to come, or have that family to depend....
I believe things happen for a reason, and i dont believe all people know what they want from life...rather living the moment is the only way.
Just something i made which sorta put me in my place;
"Greatness is more than word itself"
Every person is capable of having "SUCCESS" in their life. No one can take it away from you rather, celebrate the life you have rather than finding every flaw that it brings as it will bring more flaws and things you envision as fear will become the exact thing.
As for my own life...you see the things there on my TO DO list...well you got an idea of where im heading..and im not gonna try and let anyone get in the way from what want to. OR rather shall i say...allow myself to get in the way...
I end with this famous scene from the film "The Pursuit of Happyness"..great movie gotta it:
And by the way my FAV song atms "Undiscovered"-James Morrison (Song of the Week)
Saturday, April 14, 2007
We're Bad Liars...
Besides the harsh fact that we are all human no matter the what the person has done its funny how bad we actually LIE...
Think about that for a second...and think
At the moment my brother is the kinda person that loves egging ppl, but what happens when someone doesnt take the shit. Then what happens to him...lolz had to say that i guess i cant decide whats gonna happen to him. Maybe i have to prove to him that life aint all fun and games. In time he'll learn i understand that...
oh well getting of track now...
Everyone says...especially when we are young that we know who we really are? Expect that the freedom that we gain from our imaginations will become fufilled...there my friend is when they are mistaken and in some cases ppl will learn the hard way and have to learn the hard. We will never truly understand who we truly are until we get old or near death or a sign of somesort.
People lie so much about themselves, from my own findings and observations not only from others but myself included, we all want to feel comfortable when we express ourselves, some personalities are stronger than others so the comfort level is further harder to gain. Therefore people become 'different' change because they don't FIT IN!!!
What we believe in, where we live, the environment will ultimately decide where these 'differences' come about, for example if you lived in the North Shore, the tempermate of people there is this 'high class standard' where every one is trying to outbuy the person next to them. Emotional people....aKa the "EMO" people who are part of this group believe the pre-concieved idea that are able to so called 'express' themselves in very odd ways. People who are in these so called 'church' groups...they dont intentionally push other people out..but sorry guys you do. Sorry to say. These type of people believe that being harmoniously balanced religiously and living totally living in the vision of God...when really its should be one's faith...yeap thats right FAITH!!! And in today's world people miss it, there is no such things as an enemy...i quote one man:
People lie to fit in...people lie to feel more comfortable...sometimes the case or excuse people make is
Who's to say? We are bound by our own fate. In the end we live life day by day having no idea what the future brings, all you can do is the best person you can be!! No one..should have the need to hide themselves, no need to hide and masquerade ourselves from the world. Yes the world is cruel...but if you can be who you are, the world would be a better place for it.
To end i end with a quote that came from an old classmate from my highschool signiture book it sorta brings out my idea.
Think about that for a second...and think
At the moment my brother is the kinda person that loves egging ppl, but what happens when someone doesnt take the shit. Then what happens to him...lolz had to say that i guess i cant decide whats gonna happen to him. Maybe i have to prove to him that life aint all fun and games. In time he'll learn i understand that...
oh well getting of track now...
Everyone says...especially when we are young that we know who we really are? Expect that the freedom that we gain from our imaginations will become fufilled...there my friend is when they are mistaken and in some cases ppl will learn the hard way and have to learn the hard. We will never truly understand who we truly are until we get old or near death or a sign of somesort.
People lie so much about themselves, from my own findings and observations not only from others but myself included, we all want to feel comfortable when we express ourselves, some personalities are stronger than others so the comfort level is further harder to gain. Therefore people become 'different' change because they don't FIT IN!!!
What we believe in, where we live, the environment will ultimately decide where these 'differences' come about, for example if you lived in the North Shore, the tempermate of people there is this 'high class standard' where every one is trying to outbuy the person next to them. Emotional people....aKa the "EMO" people who are part of this group believe the pre-concieved idea that are able to so called 'express' themselves in very odd ways. People who are in these so called 'church' groups...they dont intentionally push other people out..but sorry guys you do. Sorry to say. These type of people believe that being harmoniously balanced religiously and living totally living in the vision of God...when really its should be one's faith...yeap thats right FAITH!!! And in today's world people miss it, there is no such things as an enemy...i quote one man:
Love your enemy, as if someone you really love...
People lie to fit in...people lie to feel more comfortable...sometimes the case or excuse people make is
"that a lie brings a smile and the truth brings a tear"
Who's to say? We are bound by our own fate. In the end we live life day by day having no idea what the future brings, all you can do is the best person you can be!! No one..should have the need to hide themselves, no need to hide and masquerade ourselves from the world. Yes the world is cruel...but if you can be who you are, the world would be a better place for it.
To end i end with a quote that came from an old classmate from my highschool signiture book it sorta brings out my idea.
Don't be a stranger!!!
Sunday, February 11, 2007
The Human Condition
Long time since I last blogged..maybe its because i may have been more relaxed than ever before????..hmmz i have no idea to be honest with you all.
Well besides the mindless keyboard balbbering...i get to the point.
The new generation of "social networking", everyone pretty much is part of it, from your myspace, bebo, friendster, tagged, hi5, filxster, msn, icq...and all that jazz.
I too be honest i am also apart of this new 'craze'. For some odd weird reason, we have slowly forgetting the basic skill of communcations....we seem more inclined not to speak to people directly rather than indirectly...is technology making us more lazier than we already are???
Why would you want to have to expose urself to the world hence that ur friendship group can be just that little bit larger, I got nothing against it, but the thing whenever im on these 'social networking' activities...i feel a little empty at times....like when u speak to people you dont feel as comfortable.
Imagine all those 10000 views and friends on ur list, were actually in a room with you right now at a party, ask urself out of them, which one of them would even speak to u? who would actually realli want to get to know you? how many would stay?...out of all those questions who really does care about you...and truly i mean, like sacrifice and all that.
It all comes down to this,
We are part of the:
Your all probably thinking..."What on Earth is he going on about?"...well the thing is humans all have a thing called 'reason', meaning we find reason for our own existance. Therefore we "FEEL", everyone in the world wants to feel as if they belong, whether it is family, friends, school, work..whatever...we all want to feel as if were part of sumthing special.
This is where the social networking, prides itself on!!! I dont believe i will change people minds from leaving myspace and the other stuff...but remember....
"Technology can't always solve our problems and how we fit in the world"
That's all
Well besides the mindless keyboard balbbering...i get to the point.
The new generation of "social networking", everyone pretty much is part of it, from your myspace, bebo, friendster, tagged, hi5, filxster, msn, icq...and all that jazz.
I too be honest i am also apart of this new 'craze'. For some odd weird reason, we have slowly forgetting the basic skill of communcations....we seem more inclined not to speak to people directly rather than indirectly...is technology making us more lazier than we already are???
Why would you want to have to expose urself to the world hence that ur friendship group can be just that little bit larger, I got nothing against it, but the thing whenever im on these 'social networking' activities...i feel a little empty at times....like when u speak to people you dont feel as comfortable.
Imagine all those 10000 views and friends on ur list, were actually in a room with you right now at a party, ask urself out of them, which one of them would even speak to u? who would actually realli want to get to know you? how many would stay?...out of all those questions who really does care about you...and truly i mean, like sacrifice and all that.
It all comes down to this,
We are part of the:
"HUMAN CONDITION"
Your all probably thinking..."What on Earth is he going on about?"...well the thing is humans all have a thing called 'reason', meaning we find reason for our own existance. Therefore we "FEEL", everyone in the world wants to feel as if they belong, whether it is family, friends, school, work..whatever...we all want to feel as if were part of sumthing special.
This is where the social networking, prides itself on!!! I dont believe i will change people minds from leaving myspace and the other stuff...but remember....
"Technology can't always solve our problems and how we fit in the world"
That's all
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